I've developed the reputation of an ego-centric fop with some of my friends because I talk about certain people I'm sure have crushes on me. Not everyone is in love with me, I'm told over and over again with disgusted head nods. That's not what I think, but it's obvious when someone you're impartial to is attracted to you. It gets harder when you're attracted to them back. With people I've really liked I go almost blind to their cues of attraction. I have to rely on friends to translate their behavior into digestible niblets because I'm usually too busy deconstructing all the reasons they wouldn't want me.
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