Adult film star Penny Flame has quit her porn career to reclaim herself, Jennie Ketchum, and she's documenting the journey on her new blog. After realizing she had a problem with intimacy, she realized she also had a problem with alcohol and drugs. She's now sworn off sex for a year and is in AA. Some of this is documented on the upcoming VH1 reality series Sex Rehab with Dr. Drew, but it will all be documented on the blog, Becoming Jennie. It's not a platform to hate on her former career:
Just because I am making changes, does not make me ashamed of the life I’ve led. Just because I no longer wish to perform does not mean I want the entire industry to die, or kick rocks. This has been an amazing career for me, and I would recommend being a pornstar to anyone that can momentarily put aside the need to be intimate, and then pick it back up and go on with life. You can make yourself a little nest egg and live pretty (well you used to be able to but the economic state of the biz is so so). But I’d also recommend they quit the moment they can’t pick that emotion back up, the moment intimate becomes a foreign word. And that is what I am doing now. Putting my career down to figure out what intimate actually means. As it turns out, I never knew.
Sounds like a healthy idea. The blog does contain some of the usual self-help/ L.A. mumbo jumbo, but it also a fascinating window into the mind of a porn star reentering the pedestrian world. How do you meet people now without flirting? Here's her take on this new challenge.
How the fuck am I supposed to approach people if I can’t flirt? If I can’t make a dirty joke or two or four, and if I can’t say the word penis or vagina within 5 minutes of initiating conversation? What the fuck do people talk about anyway? “What’s your sign” just doesn’t seem appropriate. “Can I buy you a drink” doesn’t fly in AA, mostly because the coffee is already free. And “Is that windex in your pants cuz I can see myself in them” will only receive raised eyebrows and uncomfortable laughs. No, I need a new approach method, and I need one quick. So I’ve sat in the meetings over the past week in an awkward state of silence. Which suits the newcomer well.
She's also grateful for her dog's farts and the Mexican men she can pick up easily at Home Depot to help her with her heavy lifting.The explanation for that dog fart business can be found on BecomingJennie.com.
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