Paul Festa describes how anti-depressants squelched his libido, which he experienced as a relief from his cock-obsessed former self. But does he really want to live a life without sex?
“On antidepressants, I regain a clarity of mind and levity of spirit that three decades' worth of disappointment, death, betrayal, abandonment, artistic and personal failure and other ordinary life experiences have dulled. My youthfulness is restored, except in my erotic life.
Antidepressants may inadvertently give you not only erotic progeria, but premature sexual nostalgia. I dimly remember, as I sometimes do the hallucinations of a childhood fever, the humors that drove me out into the night in search of cock. I was happy in those searches, in a transient, miserable way, but do I really want the fever to return? The depression of my sex drive has become my liberation from it.”