I can hardly believe it, today we’ve just witnessed the inauguration of our country’s first black President – my heart is overflowing with pride and I feel an optimism I haven’t felt since I was a child. It’s truly a thrilling moment.
It is mind boggling to see how far we’ve come in such a short while. It seems just these past few years we’ve been steadily righting the ship in definitively positive increments as far as race relations go. In fact I now can state confidently that the time is at hand for a coming together as a nation finally, and decidedly. All the prejudices and discriminations of the past will soon enough just seem like a distant poisonous cloud arching high up, hanging over almost imperceptibly in the far corner of our memory dissipating across a new morning sky.
For me, all of this makes me think back wistfully to 1993, when things were still so different…1993 the year I lost my virginity.
1993…1993. Seems like a lifetime ago. Shit, it IS a lifetime ago.1993, an awkward time filled with the irritating sounds of bell biv devoe, infused with Temple of the Dog - a nauseating combo if there ever was one.
1993 - flannel and Malcom X hats, Northern Exposure and a Different World… Nirvana and Dr Dre!...
…and there suspended in the amber of my soul like some prehistoric moth, lies the memory of Shaniqua – the kind lass who finally busted my burdensome cherry.
To be honest, my parents weren’t thrilled to death when I told them I was dating a black girl, as they still had their heads all wrapped up in that whole ‘other-ism’ trip at the time. It wasn’t like they were totally over-the-top with their opinions, it was more of an aching sense of disapproval I’d get each time I looked in their eyes. Still, you can’t really blame negative learned behavior, all you can do is try and un-learn it – which they have over the years with a bit of prodding. Anyway, they were just looking out for me - they didn’t want any trouble…
…and remarkably we did get our fair share.
At first it was truly hard to comprehend, I mean, we lived in New York after all, not Alabama. Yet here we were receiving hostile stares, being confronted with rude angry remarks, and one time some crazy fuck even spat at our feet. Of course being a total wimp, I was pretty much useless in these situations. All I could do was feebly curse them out, or block them out of my perception in general. I didn’t have the balls – or physical wherewithal – to kick any ass.
Still we hung in there for awhile, despite the fact that we really had absolutely nothing in common. She was nice enough, don’t get me wrong, and I shall ever be grateful to her for finally releasing me from the shackles of my virginity, but it was hardly a perfect match. Actually, it probably had more to do with the fact that I was pretty much an intolerable asshole at the time more than anything else.
You know, I haven’t spoken to her in 16 years, and now can barely even picture her calm and even countenance, but she’s significant to me – she’ll always be my first foray into the realm of the senses. It’s funny, I remember the room where it all went down – cigarette butts on the carpet, musical equipment strewn about, a general sty – but I can’t for the life of me remember the actual act. She was a good gal though, and I wish her well.
So Shaniqua, shall we say...all that will be and ever was?… all that I never said… and with tears still in my eyes, President Obama’s inaugural address still ringing in my head…
…. God bless America.
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